Some thoughts about "The Big Move"
Currently, I live in Fredericton, New Brunswick. It’s a nice enough place and my wife and I have made a lot of good friends there, but now that I’ve finished my university career it’s time to make a fresh start.
I’m the kind of person that desires a constant level of challenge. I get bored otherwise, then fall into a rut and never really feel good about myself. If I’m not flying by the seat of my pants and accomplishing some big new task each day, I don’t really feel all that validated when I get ready for bed. Truth be told, it doesn’t even have to be a big task, just anything that helps me better myself or improve someone else’s life.
I’m honestly a little afraid of Halifax. Not because it’s big, different or far away, but because I don’t know that many people. I’ve got to start fresh, meeting so many people I’ve never met with the intention of making connections, friends and acquaintances the same as I did in Fredericton. To top it off, there are more people here, more photographers, and thus more competition.
But that’s a good thing right? Well, the problem is that seeing another photographer in the street puts me on edge: am I getting shots as good as he/she is getting? Did they see me take that last photo and think “what a crappy angle...jeez”? Will they approach me and ask about my work and whether I’ve been doing this a long time?
Ugh, I feel a little ashamed to admit that I’m afraid of other photographers. Maybe afraid is the wrong word. I’m just intimidated by the fact that they may have more experience than I do, more education or more talent. This is the kicker though: at the end of the day I realize how silly this is and just keep going out and creating images that make me happy.
Which is of course what I plan to do when I get to Halifax. I want to continue to be inspired by other photographers, and meet some of them as well. I should organize photo-walks, and learn tricks from these experienced shooters that I’d wish I knew years ago. Maybe I have some that they’d like to learn as well.
I need to get over my fears and just create images that I like, and not worry about anything else. At the end of the day, nothing really matters but whether or not I’m happy with my images and what they mean to me.
|Downtown Halifax offers countless opportunities for photos, including this one. I think I'll be happy there, and I hope to make a lot of new friends.|